glazed

The letter

September 29, 1984 Dear so and so
Gather me up because I’m lost
Or I’m back where I started from
I’m crawling on the floor Rolling on the ground
I might cry I won’t go home
So here’s the story
I am turning up in circles
And I’m spinning on my knuckles
Don’t forget that there are circles left undone
And very close to me
Forgive me Comfort me
I’m crawling on the floor Rolling on the ground
There’s a blanket wrapped around my head
I’m moving in a line that’s shaped like this
I’m holding in my breath I have a room
Can you tell if I am lying
Don’t forget that I’m living inside
The space where walls and floor meet
There’s a box inside my chest
An animal stuffed with my frustration
Can you hear me?
Don’t forget that I’m alone when you’re away
You make me act like other people do
Forgive me Comfort me You comfort me
You make me die I’m gonna cry I won’t go home
Don’t kill the god of sadness
Just don’t let her get you down
See that man inside that book I read
Can’t handle his own head
So what the hell am I supposed to do?
I’d like to know how he died
My hands are shaking Don’t you love me anymore
I only need a person, keep my shoulders
Stand around lie down
Move your hand above the floor
Gather me up because I’m lost
Or I’m back where I started from
I’m crawling on the ground Rolling on the floor
I’m gonna cry You look for me
Love Kristin, P.S. keep them coming

©1994 Kristin Hersh

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^ spine-tingling stuff while I was finishing off that painting.

Or at least I think it may be done, only looking in daylight tomorrow will make sure. I have a photo but it’s so near to complete that I may as well wait then post a picture into the "Finished Oil Paintings " album.

 

Happy new year to those commentators who’ve made such a good start to the year.

 

Volumetric clouds

27 miles in clearl dry but misty air.

High cloud base todaysee the picture. That orange cloud is from a coal fired power station eight miles North West. Taken just after sunrise where the sunlight is almost horizontal.

New Year’s eve

6°C, westerly, some sunny bits, some wet.

47½ miles- At last! I’ve needed a ride all week- now I’m sated.
 
I don’t really need a new year’s resolution this time, usually I do. Previously it has been the same one- sleep more. Now I’m getting 6½ to 7 hours a night! Yeay! I feel much better for it too.
 
Today is a second longer. This year has a "Leap second" to adjust time to suit variations in the Earth’s rotation. Look out for an extra "pip" as the radio/TV broadcasts get to 23.60 hrs.

Last day of 40

1 to 4°C, cloudy, NW wind developing

All domestic today. We have a new central heating system. the new boiler that is of a type that can heat the water tap as well as the radiators. It’s part of some new extension with new radiators to churm out heat to parts of the house that we don’t spend much time in. It seems wasteful to me.
It’s abit late in the day to pick up that painting, and I have some report grades to process..
Anyway, this is a bit boring so I am going.

Things arriving through the door

+4°C,

There are things that appear in the house that weren’t here before. They arrive through the door in the mornings. They were put there by a man I don’t know. Today, it was two sticks of 512Mb RAM for this computer. The letter enclosed said the last pair of chips I was sent were both faulty. Tomorrow I can try these out instead. If they are virtuous- then this machine will have 2GB of RAM. that is a good thing.
Other things: the silvery rear derraileur that is so well illustrated a few entries ago. It’s even more shiney in real life. A bulb too, so I can cycle in the dark safely, and know what I am about to hit. It makes a lot of light. These new roads are very black with a slight lustre. CDs come through the door often too. Now I await a book.
 
Things.

No painting for a week now. oh!

November

November

No shadow
No stars
No moon
No care
November
It only believes
In a pile of dead leaves
And a moon
That’s the color of bone

No prayers for November
To linger longer
Stick your spoon in the wall
We’ll slaughter them all

November has tied me
To an old dead tree
Get word to April
To rescue me
November’s cold chain

Made of wet boots and rain
And shiny black ravens
On chimney smoke lanes
November seems odd
You’re my firing squad
November

With my hair slicked back
With carrion shellac
With the blood from a pheasant
And the bone from a hare

Tied to the branches
Of a roebuck stag
Left to wave in the timber
Like a buck shot flag

Go away you rainsnout
Go away, blow your brains out
November

Tom Waits


thanks for reminding me!

Guy fawkes

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Guy Fawkes Night
For non-British readers:
Guy Fawkes night celebrates the execution of a Catholic bomber and loads of his accomplises. He wasn’t really a terrorist, more of a leader of a coup. He attempted to blow up the government, rather than kill random innocent civilians.
He was sentenced to be hung, drawn and quatered (just in case). Except he jumped off the scaffold just before and broke his neck- dying instantly. You can’t blame him after lengthy torture."Pah!" they said, so they hung/chopped up loads of his co-conspirators.

But that was all in 1605- and we British don’t do that anymore. We imprison terrorists and let them out after a few years. So don’t panic Osama.

Krumpf..krumpf

10°C, sun+rain

Scanned a drawing made during a pastoral meeting of yesterday. I liked this enough to copy into my A6 sketch-book but it didn’t come out the same at all. Ack well…
I added some others onto the School Planner section since they were made in meetings.
 
Visit this site for a remarkable concept art artist. His pictures are mosrly done in photoshop with a wacom graphics tablet. –> John Wallin

Precipitation

15°C:rain+warm+boistrerous wind.

Sprite has taken longer than any picture this year, especially if you count the restarts. I need to do a quick picture of two before my confidence is eroded. The A4 oil-paper pictures are excellent for quick pictures and still look good in picture frames.
Thoughts are fed by the Peter Howson book, currently grey-orange-deep cerulean blue.
Lets see what comes up.