Uneasy, unconvincing, insecure…

15°C, light cloud


Rape of a two-year old: I have a really uneasy feeling about this story. I sense the faint scent of a miscarriage of justice: the evidence of a three year old child seems very weak to me- not the actual evidence itself, I haven’t seen that> The problem lies with the notion of taking evidence of such a young child so seriously. I teach 11-18 year olds at work each day, and a number of them have trouble forming sentences that convey what they mean. Let’s wait and see.

SATs boycot: go for it! I’m even tempted to agree with the usually belligerent NUT on this one. SATs are of no use to children, nor to their teachers- it’s a measure of schools for league tables. No benefit then, only loads of stressed children and anxious parents who have been duped by this practice. Okay, yes it may be illegal to boycot the tests, but it’s immoral to conduct them in my view.

Fritillaria: don’t you just love these little characters, go and sit to watch them in a light breeze.
There is not other occurrence of chessboard patterns in nature, purportedly.

No country,

15°C, bits of rain.


Film: No Country For Old Men: now here is a film full of space, time to breathe and heart-thumping tension. Given, the characters were not really explored in depth, it’s not a film about that. There was so much to explore otherwise that I didn’t miss it anyway. The story was centred about a psychopath, casual murder and some gore, blood, dust and desert. It was however, quiet; quiet enough to hear your heartbeat. It beat out because of the plot which didn’t give away too many secrets in advance. The theme of ageing was never far away, timeless characters were set against a guy who was so conscious of his own. I liked this film, the space, the long scenes and the smallness of the players in that vast desert.

An outbreak of hysteria-1N1 Virus

12°C, rain threatened, but pulled its punches in the end.


News: Viruses are able to turn people bonkers: Guardian. It seems that self-replicating semi-crystalline proteins can seriously damage rationalism. We now have a couple of people here in Britain with H1N1, they have mild symptoms and will recover in a few days. Contrast that with the thousands who die from ‘flu every year in this country under normal circumstances anyway.. Even in Mexico, it seem that we don’t know whether the pig flu killed those hundreds of people or did they have the flu and die of something else. The statistics just don’t exist to answer that one. I’m prepared to listen to Dr. Rosemary Leonard, she sounds like the sensible one.

This house remains calm.

Sparrow & Crow

15°C, heavy rain, dry now.


CDs: The Sparrow & The Crow: I’d swear I ordered this on LP.
The Rip: Portishead

Through the glory of life
I will scatter on the floor
Disappointed and sore
And in my thoughts I have bled
For the riddles I’ve been fed
Another lie moves over

A week gone by

15°C, light SSE wind, clear sky, Cycle 69 miles


LPs: William Fitzsimmons- in vinyl is still at work, I can’t carry LPs on the bike. Looking forward to hearing that album in its entirety.
Work: going back has been a bit of a start; like a shock but less so (I’ll reserve that word for things like seeing a pheasant getting run-over on the A515). Wednesday cracked it though, after some days feeling terrible, I went to bed before 22.00. You should do that too sometimes. Now I feel normal.
Normal: actually, I don’t. Today’s 70 miles was harder than it should have been. Perhaps I didn’t eat enough yesterday to feel normal today. I was too tired and desperate to get home to shoot some photos of blooming rape against darkening cumulus clouds. I missed a pearl there (not in a knitting sense).

A Woman, A Man walked by

18°C, Sunny, "grass frost" this morning


Back to work, grumph
PJ Harvey: A woman A Man Walked by: initial impression is a return to previous form. I love the melancholy of the previous album, but here in the spring sunshine I can hear the old vigour back. An interesting development is that inside the LP’s cover is a card with a serial number that let me download the album on mp3. This is excellent- I have the sound quality of LP and yet still can load it onto my iPod for the car.I hope this marks a future trend
A proper review.

Thursday afternoon

10°C, rain, non-stop rain


Two days on my legs still sore and need frequent stretches. Rosie is far more sore than I. She has five stitches in her leg, I don’t. I know what the cure is for this muscle-shortening stiffness, but it’s raining & I have an injured dog to pamper.

Mt. Snowdon 1085m asl

11°C, heavy showers clearing.


Yesterday: climbed Snowdon up the Watkins path. After a few thousand feet, I found myself with a delightful family who hadn’t taken that route before. They were lovely, though I would have been just as happy with the solitude at high altitude. Climbing mountains is about searching, a longing for something elusive in the distance and in these places you get closer to touching something. Talking to that family, I shall call the "howards" left less space for the first quest. The summit was a more intense emotional experience for the wrong reasons: Rosie had acquired a deep long gash on her leg which left me with blood covering my hands. I felt devestated by guilt and concern for my loyal travelling companion. My mind raced through alternative solutions that would be best for my poodle. I decided to get away from the crowds, and give rosie a rest to allow the injury to clot and stop bleeding. It did work, but I would have given anythign not to have a problem like that to solve.
The urge to climb mountains is a  really tough one to explain, so I may have to re-visit this theme to articulate it more clearly.
Hotel: after a meal, there was no getting round the fact that I was too tired to drive home. Betwys-y-Coed has lots of hotels & B&Bs, it didn’t take long to check in a place that allows dogs. British hotels are grotty places, they hark back to a nostalgia for classicism, but the stuff isn’t that old but looks flaky in detail and smells of mildew. A great place for a novelist to seek material, or for me to read more of a Brautigan book. That book really drew me in yesterday- it takes me some time to get used to an author’s voice. Don’t look him up on Youtube though- he sounds like Big Bird from Sesame Street; his writing has strength.
I longed for a place that is more populated by climbers and people who do stuff outside; maybe they do exist, or maybe Wales still hasn’t caught on to that rich potential market. that is one country held back by under-investment and lack of imagination.

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In Bruges

11°C, cloud, but blue sky west.


The clouds are taunting us- the patch of blue sky to the west has stayed there all morning, clouds are travelling northwards and could stay like this all day.
In Bruges: What a very sweary film. A brutal and funny gangster film set in a relatively little known Belgian city. What a beautiful place; a medieval city with much of the charm and atmosphere of Prague, but as the opening line in the film states: "Bruges is a shithole".  Clearly that character is less than happy: later you find out why. Warning: after watching this film, you may find yourself swearing more than usual.This effect dies down after a day or so.
  

Of rain & two punctures

14°C, warm summer-like rain.


Cycle– shortened by heavy rain showers, not a problem themselves, but the two punctures in one day is teetering on annoying.

Headaches: another approach to dealing with them is reading glasses. I almost forgot that I had them, so out of the habit of wearing them am I. So I can beat them with reading glasses, less caffeine and better hydration.